im just waiting to explode. :(
Ya Allah please guide me, i don't want the old me to come back and haunt me.
I don't want to see ppl around me suffer.
I don't want my heart closed again like before.
I don't want to be the hard hearted mean girl again and neither be too soft hearted.
my eyes are swollen, now i can't lie to anyone that im sick coz it's been two days of non stop crying alone... can't even cry it out loud. Yes im crying every second, my eyes were red, my face don't even need to describe it. im so crushed, im having alot of thing to think, My heart, Him, my family, business, work, friends and i don't know which i need to put first. Because everything is important to me.
When the time you really need him and he's not there to even be a friend who always be there for me. tsk.
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